Well, after a lot of prayer, and anxiety, loss of sleep, worries, etc… I decided to put the boys in our Church Christian Learning Center. Jared and I wanted some structure for the boys and get them used to listening to other authority and playing with other kids and learning more about God.
I was missing teaching, but not enough to go back full time, so I decided I would teach there and that way I would still be close to the boys to check on them whenever I needed to. This is perfect for me because it gets the “teacher” part out of me, without bringing home all the extra work and stress. Another added bonus, I still get to stay home with my boys the other 5 days and enjoy playgroups!
I was pretty excited about it until the day and night before we actually started. I started worrying that I was “rushing” them into school.
Was it too early?
What if they hate me for doing this to them?
Will they be miserable and not be able to express it to me?
I also worried, even though it’s my church and a safe place, would someone hurt them?
Will they be easily persuaded by the “bad” kids?
Oh so much to worry about for no reason, except that I’m a mom, worried about her kids, and their safety in this crazy, sinful, fallen world.
Well, we went through with it, much to my dismay.
I couldn’t really see them through my teary eyes as I dropped them off, but I could hear their tears and that made it so hard. Forget all that “be strong for your kids” talk. That obvi went out the window.
Anyway, we made it through the day. The boys have the BEST teachers ever, thank you GOD! They came by my class every hour to let me know how well the boys were doing and all that they were playing. When I went to pick them up, their teachers showed me pictures that they had taken of the boys during the day and they had the biggest smiles in every picture. Their teachers went on and on about how well they did and fit right in to the schedule. They told me how well they listened and shared and played well with others. Really? You remember which boys are mine, right? JK!
Their teachers also told me that right after lunch, they told everyone to go to their nap mats and lay down and go to sleep. They couldn’t believe that the boys listened and did just that. No back rub or anything. Are you kidding me? At home, it’s play central for a good hour before they go to sleep! Who are these boys kidding?!
After I signed them out, I went to the door to pick them up and they started crying again. I don’t get that. I was there to get them, not tease them and leave them again.
Anyway, I had a pretty good day too. It was hard to leave them that first week or two, but we are all adjusting together and it gets better every week. I loved the class room I was in with the first day and the teachers I was with. Since, I was hired as a floater, I am supposed to float to different classrooms until I find a good fit for me. After a few weeks of floating, I am back in the class I started in on day one and LOVE it! The girl I replaced just had a baby and will be out the rest of the year.
I look forward to Tuesday/ Thursdays and going to “work” if that’s what you want to call it. It is so much fun and so thankful we are in such a wonderful program!
It really has worked out. God has/had a plan this whole time. Why do I get so worked up and worry about things. HE is in control and works things out for His good. It just so happened it is really working out well for us too!
1st day of school 1-8-13
Graham
Gage
No comments:
Post a Comment